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February 15, 2018

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10 things i learned on my first round of directing a Movie:

  1. the right crew will find you eventually. [first i interviewed a seemingly ideal directing-DP duo who were two bold and imaginative women. they took my script, chopped it to pieces, and cast the entire thing off of headshots…. without me. along comes a new and even more fabulous DP with an impressive resume and a well-paying gig offer…. that comes 10 days before shooting our film. but really the universe was just making space and time for me and my perfect DP to meet, collaborate, and create something beautiful. thank you universe. thank you Elle Schneider.]
  2. if you don’t get it right the first time, try try again. [Day 1: everyone was excited and ready to go. the actors and location looked fantastic and we were totally prepared… it all felt so right. until i quickly realized that outdoor shots are super hard, especially with a million trees and bright sunlight and reflections and actors walking down flights of steps and there is the light on her face, and oh no, her face has disappeared into darkness again. damn shadows. i finally decided to shove the same scene into our Day 3 schedule in a totally different location and just make it work for backup. this thing isn’t edited yet but i’ll bet you a dollar we use the second one.]
  3. listen and collaborate. [so many people, so many ideas, so little time. looking back, everyone’s ideas were really brilliant and i think my crew can attest to the fact that i used about 90% of them. and that variety of ideas from all different backgrounds and experiences and brains and creative souls is what is going to make this film magical.]
  4. have faith and give yourself credit. [i have been told by everyone that has ever truly loved and known me that i should move toward directing. i would laugh and say sure, ok and then never give it a second thought. i love to talk about movies and watch movies and tell people what is wrong with every movie ever made, but i could never see myself leading the creation of one. since wrapping this short, i have received more praise and support and joyful thanks from my cast and crew than i could have ever imagined and i am ecstatic to say my friends and family might have been onto something.]Veiled Avenger2
  5. don’t panic. there is a solution for everything. [we had an incredible set designer on this shoot. a woman with limitless ideas and a will to work tirelessly until it was done just right. i love her. her car was stolen Day 2. it had some set pieces in it. do not panic, is all i could think as i paced outside. do. not. panic. next thing i knew i was sending a PA out to buy a cheap picture frame from CVS to look like a door placard ~ a perfect replica of the stolen set piece… and no one was the wiser. panicking never helped anyone. oh and the car was recovered. and scene.]
  6. good ideas and good writing attract good people. [long long ago in a Galaxy far far away, i asked a bad-ass guy to teach me how to properly use a bullwhip. five months of delays and an entirely different leading actress later, this same man was attending stunt rehearsals and coming up with the smartest easiest whip tricks that just look so cool. all i could think was what did i do to deserve not only talented, but such damn good people like this guy? looking back, i think a good script and a fun idea and being respectful and passionate and nice goes a long way. thank you T-Rex, i am proud to know you.]
  7. trust your stunt coordinator. [it helps when your stunt coordinator is also your producer and your writing group partner and your friend. still, on my first film it was hard to know how in the world any of these action sequences would actually look like… action. after 1 rehearsal with a talented coordinator, all worries flew out the window. i even got a little teary eyed just watching these women roll around and punch one another with strength and ease. there’s nothing better.]
  8. stay present. [i knew mindfulness would be key, but when you are the writer and producer and director on any size film, going with the flow becomes survival. constant script changes, special last-minute catering requests, wardrobe malfunctions, natural lighting that hates you, locations that look totally different through a lens… it’s all doable and it all works out, but stubbornness doesn’t. let it all go and watch it all come together.]
  9. share your excitement on set. [when something looks good or works out exactly how it was intended or someone MacGyver’s you out of a situation on set, tell them. tell everyone how great it is going when the going is great. this makes a happy set and a happy set makes a solid movie.]
  10. be grateful the whole time. [say thank you a lot. after every scene and every break, after seeing a set design come to life, after stepping into the unbelievable work of your gaffer who somehow made your set resemble a Marvel series, say thank you. to yourself, to the universe, to the crew. it takes a lot of souls and energy to make it all worth it. thank you, my first movie; i am so grateful.]

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October 25, 2011

10 awful Tattoo ideas I’ve entertained in my Past:

1. a penguin. [i went to college in NYC and found the Central Park Zoo to be a haven for me in times of stress and broke New York suffering. i especially felt connected and at peace with the penguins. doubt the tattoo would have looked or felt quite so meaningful.]

2. the same tattoo as a celebrity. [even though there are a few celebrities who have tattoos i admire (see Angelina above please), i don’t think anyone should ever copy a tattoo. unless you went and got tattooed together or you are married to that person or best friends or related or something extremely personal and shared. i think your choice of ink should be representative of self and copying a person i’ve never met seems quite foolish.]

3. The Fountainhead book cover. [my favorite book growing up and some of its characters are fascinating and inspiring. if you’ve seen the cover ~ the symbol of a man holding a sun ~ you’ll realize why this idea has been personally vetoed about 10 times. love the meaning but the image is a bit much.]

4. the Green Bay Packers logo. [a little green and gold symbol that would always remind me of Aaron Rodgers and the team that made a non-sports girl completely obsessed with football could be a sweet tribute. then i think about staring at the Packer logo on my ankle when i am 60 and something always holds me back. weird.]

5. Chinese symbols copied from my first love. [again with the copying thing so re-read #2 now. also, Chinese symbols that mean something to someone else? first love who has nothing to do with my life now? i don’t believe there is a single piece of this idea that has any intelligence to it. silly romantic notions from watching too many movies again.]

6. my grandmother’s name. [if the name Rosalie in cursive on my arm didn’t conjure images of girls in juvie, this would be the one i’d have chosen long ago. if you had known my grandmother, you’d have tossed around the idea too.]

7. my lucky number. [44. there’s a pretty good running back with that number in Green Bay this season but other than that, not too sure what it’s brought me so far. i make my own luck and a stamp of a number on my back isn’t going to happen anytime soon.]

8. a wedding ring. [i love jewelry and i absolutely loved wearing a wedding ring while married, but i have also always been enamored with the idea of a permanent ring tattooed on my ring finger. it just makes no sense at all when i think about it; hence, no tattoo.]

9. my sign. [trendy and cheesy yes, but there is more to why i have never pulled the trigger on this one. after learning a bit about astrology, i realized there are several signs that represent my personality. a combination of strengths and weaknesses, moons and suns, charts and planets and nodes and t-squares. that’s about the point when i got really confused and let the whole idea go.]

10. a basic tramp stamp. [god knows why i have even considered it. maybe the notion that it’s rebellious to get a stupid tattoo across the base of your back when you are an adult and well aware of the jokes and what it symbolizes? or maybe, just maybe there is some 16-year-old part of me that still thinks these look sexy. let’s not overanalyze.]

my fun hiatus.

October 11, 2011

10 Reasons I loved Being Part of an Art “Party” Weekend:

1. girl artists with style and passion will always be way cooler than me…and i love them for it.

Miss Mindy.

2. creators whose art i admire can make me admire their personality just as well.

Travis Louie.

3. those who embrace their uniqueness most, create pieces that often make you smile.

Gris Grimly.

4. quiet and unassuming can produce the most classic and interesting illustrations imaginable.


5. dirty and unapologetic has its place and always gets people talkin’.

Johnny Ryan

6. when someone’s work is extreme, expect their hotel room to match it.


7. anything can be whimsical and light while still having a unique edge to it.


8. seeing your favorite artwork is always better in person.

Ana Bagayan

9. eating pizza while talking about your kids makes me covet your paintings even more.

Johnny KMNDZ Rodriguez

10. collaboration is possible, even amongst the craziest.

All Baby Tattooville Artists 2011